Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Feel the fear and do it anyway

OK things are getting hotter.
I have looked at a place that I could rent to work. On Monday.
I liked it. It has just been restored so it's all freshly painted and there wouldn't be any heavy installation costs, just decoration. It is in a nice area of Bordeaux, right next to a shop that sells herbal stuff and healthy cosmetics, so basically that could bring me customers. There is a health food store on the square next to it, and an organic clothes shop in a nearby street.
The place is cheap enough, and no heavy sum of money to get in.
So it looks really good.
The fear is, of course, once I have a place, there are some fixed costs. Which means I am committing to my business, like, REALLY, but doing that step.
And immensely exciting also.
So at the moment I am spending my days in numbers, calculating costs and planning ahead, imagining what it will be like and doing all the admin work I need to finish my project and ask for the loans I need and all.
Uh oh...
I am DOING it!!
Still a bit to do, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Nearly there. Scary, but doable.

Monday, January 12, 2009

New beginnings

I feel good today.
Getting used to my new hearing aids and it's not easy, but not as hard as I thought either.
In normal situations, I feel good with them, and I do hear better. The hard side is the bluetooth bit of it. The hearing aids have a bluetooth functionality that allows me to answer my mobile phone directly in my ears and such. The sound is strange though, and so far I find it easier to just yank the hearing aids off my ears and answer the phone directly. Which doesn't quite work, of course, as the two are paired and trying to remove the bluetooth connection in the middle of a call disconnects the call. Hmmm. So I have been calling back people a lot.
I just got the hearing aids adjusted this morning and really hoped that it would help. It is a bit better, but not good enough for me to follow a conversation completely on the phone. Damn.
Maybe it's a question of getting used to it. I'll give it another few days, and will go back to the audioprothesist to adjust it further if it doesn't get better. So far it feels like I am listening to someone who is calling a radio station, and speaking on the phone live. Kind of narrow, hard to understand speech.

But things are good. I feel good. Confident that things are working out perfectly.
I have plenty of projects for 2009, business-wise. I want to create conferences, workshops, and even workshops with other people. I want to have more clients, 15 per week would be good, or the equivalent of income through other means. And I want to create a monthly newsletter, and to WRITE!! So this is what I am going to start right now. I'll write for an hour every day for a few weeks and see how it goes. Then I can up or down the time according to my schedule and intuition.

Life is good.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Review of 2008

What a year 2008 has been!
Thought it would be good to write about the year. Have an overview for myself, of everything that happened in 2008.
And yeah. What a year.
I came back from the States, took forever (or so it seemed - I think it was about 5 months) to make up my mind as to what I was going to do, and where I was going to be.
I realized that my longing to move away from France hid some cluttered closets I was trying to escape from. I decided to finally face the music and look at what was in these closets, one drawer after the next. Realized that it is mostly not that scary once I decide to face it and stay with whatever comes up.
In the process I decided to stay in France (for now at least, probably for the next few years, and then who knows), and create my own healing business in Bordeaux.
Found a training course that supported me in many ways to create that business, and started at the very end of the year to live from it (OK I can't say I am rich, but hey! It's starting!).
Met many people who are on the same wavelength, in Bordeaux, and created some really rich friendships.
Realized that I don't necessary have to commit to things for the rest of my life, and things don't have to be perfect, but things will move, and doors will open if I put my heart into what I do.
Started to organize and deliver workshops at the end of the year, which is something I really want to do more. Became aware by doing it that hey! I can do this! And I can do it well!
Noticed how amazing it is to wake up in the morning knowing that what I do fills me with joy and feels on purpose. And also I love waking up at whatever time I want. Hehe.
Starting to tackle many of my patterns around lack and scarcity, in all areas of my life. It's fun to know that life doesn't have to be scarce, and is meant to be full and abundant. I can feel now that I am starting to open up to that.

So what about 2009?
Well I don't want to take resolutions as such. I just want life to continue to unfold, and I want to go with the flow. Grow my business, tend to my friendships, take care of myself, develop more and more projects that keep me at the edge of my comfort zone.
I'd like to sort out my relationship patterns too, and open up to a new fulfilling relationship.
And write. I want to write. Haven't been so good with it in 2008. Other priorities. Now I can feel it is pushing inside, and I have to do it. I really want to do it too.
Yeah that's about it.
Looking at my life, I am so grateful for exactly where I am now.

Monday, December 15, 2008

On and on!

Well, it's been 2 months.
I have been busy over the last 2 months.
The 18th of October was a big day - As part of the training program I was in, we (all the women in the program) had organized an event that day to promote our new activity, and women's initiatives in general. It was a lot of work, but also a lot of fun and energy on the day.
I had a space with a massage table and I gave free mini-healing sessions. There were a lot of people all day around my space, a lot of questions and interests, and contacts at the end of the day.
It was a nice peak to the program that finished that the end of October.

Right after that event I realized that I needed a new project to keep me going, so I decided to organize a workshop. And it all went very fast because I wanted to organize it before Christmas, knowing January would probably not be a good time with people being broke and depressed after Christmas.
And I did it! Created a workshop from scratch on Chakra energetics, and delivered it last Saturday. It was a half day workshop, I had 6 participants, and it went well!
I am very happy with it, and kinda proud because it's the first time I do something like that! Organizing an event from scratch, creating the communication, getting the participants, creating the content and finding the objects and music needed, and delivering it. Woohoo!!
So now I'll do more of them. And conferences. I have 2 planned for February. Will probably do one on the Law of Attraction and one on Energetic healing... Need to have a description of both conferences by the beginning of January.
I notice that creating deadlines for myself is the way I work best. Especially if the deadlines are public and if people depend on me to deliver on time.
So I am learning a lot about myself and enjoying the process while my business starts.

Sunday, October 12, 2008


Ok it's been a while since I posted here.
Well take it from me, no news is good news!
Things are going well. There isn't necessarily any huge breakthrough that would incite me to write often on this blog, but things are going forward little by little.
I am well settled in my little apartment in Bordeaux, and enjoy the freedom of having my own place. It feels like a small cosy warm cocoon.
I have started Kundalini Yoga 3 weeks ago, and love it. It is pretty intense, working more on the breathing and on the speed of movements than on the postures like Hatha Yoga, and I leave each session feeling at peace, deeply relaxed and joyful. Perfect.
I have also started drama lessons this week. The first week was shorter than planned, but with a bit of improvisation and all, it was great fun and I didn't feel like leaving at all at the end! So looking forward to the next lessons.
Business-wise, things are also going forward. I have a few regular clients, including one who comes twice a week at the moment, and I am enjoying watching her grow. As soon as I am in a session with a client, all doubts leave, and I am just there, fully centered and on purpose, strong, and joyful. I love it!
And I am starting to meet people in the same kind of work. People on my wavelength. It is fascinating to notice that there are quite a few people with similar goals and interests as I have. When I thought that France was not at all "evolved" that way...