The Northern Lights, Paris and my next steps...

OK so it seems my daemon is a wolf. I LOVE IT!! I have to say it feels better than a bee...
I am now reading the third volume of the Northern Lights trilogy. Still loving every bit of it. Very interesting that idea of many worlds that are kinda superposed on top of each other. And windows to go from one to the other.
Went to see the movie in the meantime. Loved Nicole Kidman and Eva Green, but was a bit disappointed by how much the plot was changed compared to the book.

I spent the weekend in Paris with an American friend. I hadn't been in Paris in a long time, and had never really done the touristy thing, like taking a boat on the Seine, going to the Eiffel tower and Notre Dame and all. That was great. Saw Moulin Rouge and the Cafe where Amélie works in the movie. It was a lot of fun.
Now back to Bordeaux. What do I want?
Always back to this question...
Well things are clearer now. I want to be a coach. Life coach kinda thing. And I want to be a writer. So from this, I can start doing things.
I have a few appointments set up this week with people who can help me clarify my next steps. It feels good. Movement again.
As for the writing, it is simple really. I just need to do it.

My Daemon

I am reading the Golden Compass at the moment. Haven't seen the movie yet, would love to see it as soon as I can.
In the meantime, I found the link to meeting my own Daemon (half soul, half best friend) on Darcy's blog (http://darxyanne.blogspot.com), so here it is:



What do you think? Does it fit my personality? You have 12 days to give your feedback, and then the Daemon will settle into its final form...

Game on!

City life and connection

It is not so easy to really connect with people in a city. There are more people to connect with than in the country side, but they are also often more guarded.
And so far it has been quite hard to even find someone who was open enough to engaging a conversation. But yesterday I found a little cafe that felt good. Sort of community cafe, focusing on serving organic local produce and being open to local life and exchanges. There I could connect with people. It felt good.
So I am going to go back there today and see how it feels.
I can feel things are starting to move. Most importantly I am starting to drop my resistance.
Since I came back from San Francisco I felt like the most important thing for me was to find some way to get back there asap. Yet when I am in that space I miss the whole point.
The most important thing for me is to be here, now.
It doesn't even matter if I ever go back to San Francisco in my whole life. While I am here, now, I want to be here and now 100%. Open, relaxed, enjoying my time and what I am doing.
I have had huge resistance to it. I felt like the only people I wanted to be with, the only people I could connect with and be open with were the ones I met in San Francisco. I felt scarce. Like there were not enough like-minded people here for me to connect with them.
I have realized that it was an illusion, a self-made construct.
There is abundance. Here as well.

City life, soon

I am going to Bordeaux tomorrow evening. Will stay there for the week, and it will probably be my base for a while.
From there, I will be able to move around without a car, with public transports and walking. I will also be able to meet people and maybe find some kind of job.
Thinking about it feels like a breath of fresh air.
I will be staying at my aunts in Bordeaux, which gives me a stable base to start my investigations from.
I am looking forward to it. It is not easy to be in the middle of the countryside without a car. I love spending time with my parents, but I feel stuck. I need to get on with my life and start doing something for myself.
Well no.
I don't need to do so much. I need to trust.
Trusting my intuition is part of it. And my intuition tells me to go to Bordeaux.

Packing again... I realize how I don't like packing. Yet I do it all the time. What do I take, what will I need. Another opportunity to just trust.
I am so tired right now. I think I'll go to sleep and will finish tomorrow...

Fog

I feel like I am sitting in a bubble bath in the fog. Things are boiling, but I have no idea where I am, where is my next step, or where I bloody well left my towel, shoes and clothes...
It is uncomfortable.
Yet I get the feeling this is exactly where I am supposed to be. Here in the fog, not knowing where to go next. Baby steps. First step up in the water, look down right beside the bath. Look here is the towel. First baby step.
Right now my baby step is to go to the company creation workshop tomorrow. It will take all day, and then we'll see. I will have a clearer view of what it takes to create a company in France.
Then, the second baby step is to move to Bordeaux, stay at my aunts, in the city where I will be able to move around freely with public transport, meet people, maybe even find some kind of money-making activity!
And then we'll see.
One step at a time.