Well, this is it.
Last day.
Tomorrow morning, alarm set at 6am.
Brushing teeth, eating breakfast, putting the last few things away, the last bags in the car, leaving the keys behind (how strange is that, I'll have no keys of mine anymore...).
And then setting off before 8am for Rosslare Harbour, where the ferry will be bringing us to Cherbourg the next day.
Bye bye Ireland.
My car is in Claregalway with a friend who agreed to play the middle man to sell it. Ads are in the Galway Advertiser for the next two weeks, and in the Buy and Sell too.
I can feel it will get sold soon.
It will be just fine, as usual.
And now what?
A feeling of emptiness but also excitement.
Sadness, grief and also joy.
The path to Santiago is calling me.
California is calling me.
Adventure is calling me.
Now it is past midnight, I'd better get to bed if I don't want to be wrecked for the big day tomorrow.
I wonder if I'll sleep...
Monday, April 30, 2007
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Last days...
It feels a bit strange today.
I went into town, to the market, with my dad and my aunt, and it felt like there was something special in the air. As if there was a festival or so.
Yes, there were people from twin city Lorient who organised a breton market, and there was also Celtic music and dancing, but there wasn't as much people around it as there would be in a real festival.
No really, maybe it was just the feeling of summer, with the sun shining and relative heat around (20 degrees Celsius today, summer temperature for Ireland!!). Or maybe it just felt special because I am leaving and I knew it would be my last time on the market.
Or at least my last time as a resident in Ireland.
Since the barbecue on Thursday, with all the people I said goodbye to, it really feels like I am leaving, and I am not quite sure what to make of it.
Obviously there are mixed feelings, after all, I spent seven and a half years of my life here, which means it is where I spent most of my adult life. I was 21 when I arrived.
A seven-year-cycle later, here I am, almost leaving.
I really have no idea what to make of it.
Well, tonight I will finish all my bottles of alcohol with my dad, aunt and landlord and landlady. Don't be scared, there isn't that much left.
But it will be fun, and less to bring back.
And I am sure I will be fine tomorrow :-)
I went into town, to the market, with my dad and my aunt, and it felt like there was something special in the air. As if there was a festival or so.
Yes, there were people from twin city Lorient who organised a breton market, and there was also Celtic music and dancing, but there wasn't as much people around it as there would be in a real festival.
No really, maybe it was just the feeling of summer, with the sun shining and relative heat around (20 degrees Celsius today, summer temperature for Ireland!!). Or maybe it just felt special because I am leaving and I knew it would be my last time on the market.
Or at least my last time as a resident in Ireland.
Since the barbecue on Thursday, with all the people I said goodbye to, it really feels like I am leaving, and I am not quite sure what to make of it.
Obviously there are mixed feelings, after all, I spent seven and a half years of my life here, which means it is where I spent most of my adult life. I was 21 when I arrived.
A seven-year-cycle later, here I am, almost leaving.
I really have no idea what to make of it.
Well, tonight I will finish all my bottles of alcohol with my dad, aunt and landlord and landlady. Don't be scared, there isn't that much left.
But it will be fun, and less to bring back.
And I am sure I will be fine tomorrow :-)
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Webcam, Skype and lots of fun!
Here is a great picture of my dad and me having fun with the webcam, while talking to my mum over Skype. We had a great time!
So my dad and my aunt arrived without any problem yesterday evening, exhausted after the whole journey, so they had an early night, and we went around town today.
The weather has improved today, it was raining a bit this morning, but it is nice and sunny now. From the window where we are looking through now, I can't see one cloud.
So I'd better go now as my dad is getting hungry and starting to nag me about what I am going to make, and should we start to do something now, and if yes, what, etc... So I'll go and start cooking before he starves altogether!
Apart from that, only the car to sell and I'll be ready to go!
I am pretty sure it will happen soon, and everything will be ok.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Spa bliss
This afternoon I went to the spa with a friend. I had promised her that I would invite her to the Thermal suite in the Radisson Hotel for her birthday, and even though her birthday was in January, I never got to it until today. Better late than never, definitely.
And it was great! We spent time in the aroma grotto, on the beach (yes they have an indoor beach), in saunas and steamrooms, in tropical showers and cold mists, and on wonderful relaxing heated chairs.
We got out of there giggling, but relaxed and tired as if we had run a marathon. The chicken and chips with the glass of Sauvignon blanc was welcome after that.
So now I feel all relaxed.
I have only few things left to do regarding packing tonight - I intend to sort out the bathroom stuff, shoes and most of the clothes I know I won't wear until I leave - and I would like to take a bit of time doing a law of attraction meditation before going to sleep. I know that I need, and want, to stay focused right now.
It is too easy to slip down the road of fear and worry. After all it IS a big transition, and many things still need to be sorted somehow before I leave.
But really worrying about them will not help, so I might as well just projecting exactly what I want, knowing that I will attract what I think about most.
So phew! It feels like I have turned the whole worry thing around. But let's not rest on our successes, and stay focused in the right direction instead.
And it was great! We spent time in the aroma grotto, on the beach (yes they have an indoor beach), in saunas and steamrooms, in tropical showers and cold mists, and on wonderful relaxing heated chairs.
We got out of there giggling, but relaxed and tired as if we had run a marathon. The chicken and chips with the glass of Sauvignon blanc was welcome after that.
So now I feel all relaxed.
I have only few things left to do regarding packing tonight - I intend to sort out the bathroom stuff, shoes and most of the clothes I know I won't wear until I leave - and I would like to take a bit of time doing a law of attraction meditation before going to sleep. I know that I need, and want, to stay focused right now.
It is too easy to slip down the road of fear and worry. After all it IS a big transition, and many things still need to be sorted somehow before I leave.
But really worrying about them will not help, so I might as well just projecting exactly what I want, knowing that I will attract what I think about most.
So phew! It feels like I have turned the whole worry thing around. But let's not rest on our successes, and stay focused in the right direction instead.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Strange, but interesting times...
It has been yet another while since I last posted anything here.
I feel like I am living in strange times.
Really since the laptop story nothing is quite the same.
My parents called me on Monday evening, i.e. at the time they were supposed to take the ferry, to tell me that mum's ID card is expired and they wouldn't let them on the ferry. So the next few days were filled with frantic attempts to get an emergency passport, or some kind of ID organised for my mum before Monday (tomorrow) which was the date we had rescheduled the ferry to.
However all failed, and my dad is going to have to come here with my mum's sister.
It's not the ideal situation, but no one died or had an accident, and it is really not the end of the world. Also it is giving me a few more days to finish the packing, and meet up one last time with people I haven't seen in a long time.
But somehow it didn't flow very well.
Things are not flowing so well at the moment.
Strange, as they really did at the beginning of my getting ready to move. I sold most of my little stuff very quickly, and have now packed most of what I keep, so I just need to sort and pack bathroom stuff and clothes and I am done.
But, one big thing that is still waiting is the car. I haven't sold it yet, and have had absolutely no phone call about it this week, although I put an ad in many different papers/websites, with lower prices than last week.
Obviously, the fact that I am not selling it makes me worry about it, which probably pushes the very thing I am looking for away from me.
I know I need to relax, trust and let go.
Looking this morning at the reasons why I worry, I found out that selling the car is only one step. From it should come the money I need for the rest of the year. So if I don't manage to sell it, or somehow lose that money, I am stuck with enough money for maybe two months, but far from my dream of taking it easy until the end of the year, and taking my time to go to the States and explore before I have to really do something. So my fear of not selling the car comes down to another fear, the one of not having enough money. And that fear is linked to the fear of not being able to attract the money I need and want for the rest of my life.
I know about the law of attraction, have read about it, and am painfully aware that I should know better than that.
But then again I also know that the best thing I can do in any situation is to embrace it, rather than try to make myself feel better by beating myself up for any "unreasonable" feelings I might have.
So that's what I'll do.
I have dug out my Emotional Freedom Technique documentation, so I can tap the feelings and emotions away. What I like about the EFT releasing technique is that it helps me first accept, and often really find out whatever I am feeling, before letting it go. So it goes with the flow, instead of beating the feeling out of me with pure force. That means it doesn't leave any residues of the little victim in me who cries "but I am ENTITLED to feel that way! Look at how I was wronged!!"
I also reminded myself of one of the basic law of attraction rules: if I want to be wealthy, or attract money in any way, I really need to be, think and act like a wealthy person... Now how would a wealthy person feel about my car? They would probably not worry one bit about it. I mean, if you are a millionaire, you are not going to sweat because you don't know if you will get the 13000 Euro that the car is worth... And as a result, you probably sell it, and get that money or more in no time!
Also a wealthy person wouldn't worry about how to get money for the end of the year, or even for the rest of their life!
So there.
The answer is pretty clear.
So what would a millionaire do today? Probably have breakfast, meet the people they have said they'd meet, and spend the rest of the day doing what they really like.
So that's what I'll do! I am going in a couple of hours to meet a friend of mine whom I haven't seen in a year, and who just had a baby, so that'll be nice.
And then I'll go home and write, because I really feel like it and I haven't done it in a long time.
I feel like I am living in strange times.
Really since the laptop story nothing is quite the same.
My parents called me on Monday evening, i.e. at the time they were supposed to take the ferry, to tell me that mum's ID card is expired and they wouldn't let them on the ferry. So the next few days were filled with frantic attempts to get an emergency passport, or some kind of ID organised for my mum before Monday (tomorrow) which was the date we had rescheduled the ferry to.
However all failed, and my dad is going to have to come here with my mum's sister.
It's not the ideal situation, but no one died or had an accident, and it is really not the end of the world. Also it is giving me a few more days to finish the packing, and meet up one last time with people I haven't seen in a long time.
But somehow it didn't flow very well.
Things are not flowing so well at the moment.
Strange, as they really did at the beginning of my getting ready to move. I sold most of my little stuff very quickly, and have now packed most of what I keep, so I just need to sort and pack bathroom stuff and clothes and I am done.
But, one big thing that is still waiting is the car. I haven't sold it yet, and have had absolutely no phone call about it this week, although I put an ad in many different papers/websites, with lower prices than last week.
Obviously, the fact that I am not selling it makes me worry about it, which probably pushes the very thing I am looking for away from me.
I know I need to relax, trust and let go.
Looking this morning at the reasons why I worry, I found out that selling the car is only one step. From it should come the money I need for the rest of the year. So if I don't manage to sell it, or somehow lose that money, I am stuck with enough money for maybe two months, but far from my dream of taking it easy until the end of the year, and taking my time to go to the States and explore before I have to really do something. So my fear of not selling the car comes down to another fear, the one of not having enough money. And that fear is linked to the fear of not being able to attract the money I need and want for the rest of my life.
I know about the law of attraction, have read about it, and am painfully aware that I should know better than that.
But then again I also know that the best thing I can do in any situation is to embrace it, rather than try to make myself feel better by beating myself up for any "unreasonable" feelings I might have.
So that's what I'll do.
I have dug out my Emotional Freedom Technique documentation, so I can tap the feelings and emotions away. What I like about the EFT releasing technique is that it helps me first accept, and often really find out whatever I am feeling, before letting it go. So it goes with the flow, instead of beating the feeling out of me with pure force. That means it doesn't leave any residues of the little victim in me who cries "but I am ENTITLED to feel that way! Look at how I was wronged!!"
I also reminded myself of one of the basic law of attraction rules: if I want to be wealthy, or attract money in any way, I really need to be, think and act like a wealthy person... Now how would a wealthy person feel about my car? They would probably not worry one bit about it. I mean, if you are a millionaire, you are not going to sweat because you don't know if you will get the 13000 Euro that the car is worth... And as a result, you probably sell it, and get that money or more in no time!
Also a wealthy person wouldn't worry about how to get money for the end of the year, or even for the rest of their life!
So there.
The answer is pretty clear.
So what would a millionaire do today? Probably have breakfast, meet the people they have said they'd meet, and spend the rest of the day doing what they really like.
So that's what I'll do! I am going in a couple of hours to meet a friend of mine whom I haven't seen in a year, and who just had a baby, so that'll be nice.
And then I'll go home and write, because I really feel like it and I haven't done it in a long time.
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